Well the day started off with some work then i took care of getting my will in order just because it has to be done with so many kids. I did fine all day till I went to my pre op appointment. It was very difficult to hear the MANY variables and the reality of what I am going to have to endure. I held it together there then at the chest xray and the additional blood work. I had to do more because my sub acute thyroiditis is acting up. My sugars are up and down and my feet and hands are swelling. My energy level is very low but I am maintaining a steady work pace.
Bobby and I left the hospital. Bobby had to go per the Dr. because the spouse needs to understand my care for the first few days. I came home and was okay then I just lost it I cried and cried. I have been so strong but today was just one of those down days. I have been thru so much in my life. Why me I am a young mother of 5? I just could not deal and I asked Bobby if I could just leave the house for a little bit. Alexa and I went and spent time together. She is so stuck to me side right now. I think she at 5 senses something is not okay with her mommy. Jake came up to me today and just hugged me and actually cried for the first time since I told him. I need so many prayers. I do not wan to blog about the bad outcomes but the best case. We need prayer for clear margins and clear lymph nodes. Please pray and spread the word. I have never been so afraid in my life as I am right now. I need you all your comment and emails. Your support is what will pull me thru this very difficult time in my life. Please PRAY!!!!
Love to all!
Cara Cares
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