Busy week

Well this week is month end and crazy. I am exhausted!!! I had a biopsy this week and should have results in about a week. I have my last chemo next week. I am soo excited to be finished with that part of my treatment. A few weeks later I will start radiation for 6 1/2 weeks then in November I will have a full hysterectomy. Bobby's mom from Canada returned home this week. She really helped me keep my mind off everything and I am so thankful we had time with her. When I walked through the door on Tuesday night Anthony was there wanting to know where his Nona was. He also has progressed from MAMA to Grandma. He is putting together 3-4 word sentences. He is getting so big. Little Miss Bella is every where she is so quite yet busy. Very curious just like her daddy. Alyssa is doing well spending time to work on herself and what she wants out of life. I am very proud of the steps she has taken to make her life a healthy and happy one. She is starting back to her fall art classes soon. Jacob has gotten so tall. He will start Tae Kwon Do in September and is such a perfect gentleman. He enjoys playing board games as a family. Alexa starts soccer soon she is such a talented player. Daddy is very happy she has taken such an interest in his favorite sport. Alexa says she is good because she is Italian. We can not tell her otherwise. I guess it is in her heart! All the kids have enjoyed a great summer with camps, swimming, movies and good old fashioned family time. In the midst of such a trying time there is so much good. We also enjoyed some time with the boys this past weekend they all were here for little bro's b-day party. Meaghan and Bella are next on the b-day list. Meaghan is going to be 18 I can not believe it. She is really growing up into a bright and kind young women. We will have kids from 1 to 18. We really should write a book.

Love to all,
Cara Cares

What a great man!

I have to say in life we sometimes get frustrated. I am very thankful I have Bobby there to help me through. I feel for him so badly right now. He is really needing a break and needs to have time to take care of him. He spends his days working hard to carry the load for 9 kids since I am not full force right now. Not to mention my three are not being taken care of by their responsible party. I am really sick of hearing excuses. Lets see I had breast cancer and I am going through chemo and I manage to get myself up everyday and take care of my kids and my responsibilities. It is always is an excuse. It is time to grow up!! Nothing is ever their fault always someone else's. In the meantime there are three innocent children. We shall see if this person will ever grow up and do what they need to do. If anyone is upset by this I really do not care it is the truth and my blog. I am sick and tired of my three oldest being hurt by other people's vengeance. It would be an ideal world if people stop picking on the parent that has been here for the kids and stop enabling the parent that has not. Enabling a person is allowing their sickness to continue and you are just as sick. Okay I have had my therapy for today and got the load off my chest. Release it!

Love to all,
Cara Cares

More test

Well the 3rd chemo went okay. The normal stuff! However now I have to go in for more test. There are a couple of issues I am having and my chemo Dr has referred me to another specialist.
Please say a prayer.

Love to all,
Cara Cares

3RD CHEMO TODAY

Well today is my 3rd chemo. I feel pretty relaxed and calm. I pretty much know what to expect. I am going to read my versus before I go. Jake and Alexa are home from camp. They had so much fun and Grandma said they were perfect angels. Alyssa is doing well preparing for high school. Anthony is talking more and more. He has his 2nd b-day coming up. Bella Grace is belly crawling all over just like her brother Jake. She also is pulling up and still not saying MAMA.
Of course Bobby melts at the 1000 times a day she says Dada and crawls to him. I may have lost the battle but not the war. LOL! Just kidding..
Please keep me/us in your prayers as we finish up with chemo. Radiation will start a few weeks after I finish chemo.

Love to all,
Cara Cares

Ready for things to be boring!

I find myself always being so strong but there are those moments when I am just drained.
I would never show that to my children but I am tired. I am praying today for God's strength and wisdom. The devil is trying to drag me down. I wish everyone would just realize what I am going thru and BACK OFF. There are people that are so angry that revenge is the only thing they want. They do not think that if they tear me down they are hurting the kids. They want to blame me instead at looking at themselves. It is easier to tear someone else down instead of taking a hard look at yourself. Finding you accountability in a situation is the first step to having a better life.
On a funny note I am sitting here typing listening to Bella say DADADADADA! I try to get her to say mama and I get a firm DADA!
Love to all,
Cara Cares

Mom from Cananda is coming!

Bobby's mom from Canada is coming today. She will be here for two weeks and to help out during my third chemo. Should be a nice time. We will I am sure spend a lot of time just talking we tend to do that. We are so excited!!!

Love to all,
Cara Cares

Busy days

I appreciate those of you that are still thinking of us and praying for us. Things are really busy right now. I guess it will be that way for many years with 9 kids total!! Our oldest Meaghan will be 18 in September and sent me a nice thinking of you card that shows she is growing up into a thoughtful young lady. Cody is 16 and working and enjoying instant money as a waiter. Justin is 14 and sweet kid and skating. Tyler is 11 and learning how to cook just like his daddy. It is funny the minute I met Bobby all my cooking ability went out the door. Alyssa is 14 and is spending the summer learning to take care of herself and deal with issues regarding her biological father. I am proud of her for taking positive steps to improve her life and faith. Jake is growing into a fine young man. He is getting tall and is very responsible. He has become Bobby's little buddy. Jake also takes his big brother role to the babies very seriously. He is full of useless knowledge which Bobby loves! Alexa is also a suck up and she will tell you about it. She is sweet and is really growing up. She is practicing her soccer and learning to swim under water. She is tough on the soccer field. Who would of thought that the little princess would be so assertive.
Bobby is working hard all around. He does not stop. I often tell him he is ADD. He has really taken his role as spiritual leader and work hard in therapy to improve himself and his relationships. I am very proud of him and LOVE HIM SOOO MUCH! I never thought I would have this kind of love. I thought these feelings were just for TV. The important thing is Bobby and I hold ourselves accountable and we are very honest about our flaws. Therapy is not easy or comfortable. It is about accountability and learning to change and improve yourself. It is not a cake walk or for people in constant denial. Have a great weekend!
Love to all,
Cara Cares

God's divine interventine

I have realized that when we pray for God's help we do not get to choose how he helps us.

We have to sit back and let him take over. He has his timing and his will.

God will deal with the devil.

Love to all,

Cara Cares

Urgent intervention for my family.

Please pray with us. We need God to rebuked the devil in the name of Jesus. We have the devil trying to tear us down in every direction. I rebuked the devil in the name of Jesus. To all our prayers warriors I turn to you for help once again. Everyone in this house has prayed and now we need you to stand in with us.
Love to all,
Cara Caras

Need urgent prayer. Cara is having a really hard time. She has had a migraine headache for two days now. In spite of taking her medications as prescribed by her doctor, the headaches continue. According to the doctor, this morning, her next step is the emergency room. She is determined not to let stress get to her and let the devil win. So when you read this would you pray for her. This has been written by her mother at her request.

Fighter

Well yesterday I kind of felt like the weak one. I could not rally to have a positive attitude.
Today I am better and ready to keep fighting. That is the one thing about me I may get down for a moment but then watch out I will come back strong. I have my faith , family and friends who will not let me stay down. When I went to my chemo Dr on Monday for my WBC shot I saw a man come in complaining of the same things I was feeling. At least I knew that I was not alone.
I have my MRI on Thursday since I just did not want to go and do it yesterday. Bobby and I have a lot of stress on us right now. We are supporting 5 kids full time and support 4 others.
I am not able to be full force right now. I am having to push myself harder than I should because others feel it is important to not take care of their responsibilities. Okay I am going to stop before I say to much. I love my blog I can say it and be done with it. Someone else in this situation may be helped by knowing they are not alone. You are not alone God is always there. There can be no other explanation of how we have made it this far and always been provided for. Read the book of Matthew. It has a lot of God's promises of him being there for you.

Love to all,
Cara Cares

Thankful

I am thankful today to God for getting me thru my second chemo. Yes I am nauseated. Yes my body hurts. It is nothing compared to last time. I went in with fear the first time and this time I went in with God arms wrapped around me and protecting me. The difference is God's miracle.
I am really tired so I am going to rest I have an MRI this morning.
Love to all,
Cara Cares