Great news!

I got great news. My mammogram is clear. I have a 6 month break on the mammogram and 3 months from my breast surgeon. I had a scary minute at the mammogram place. I had my mammogram then they had me repeat some films. Then the took my for a sono. The dr that diagnosed me walk in to do my sono. I was oh no not again! She quickly reassured me that the sono was just to double check everything. She told me that she thinks of me often and was glad to see I had done so well. She told me my outlook is what got me through. I am blessed as my sister said. I had a team of doctors that quickly got me through the process. Watching other people go through the system I had the best team around. I am thankful God had his hand on me. I am ready to get my surgery done and enjoy the holidays with my family.
Tonight Bobby and I took 7 of our 9 trick or treating. The kids got tons of candy. The kids actually wanted to stop. We went for two hours. Jake and Alexa saw a lot of their friends from school. I was behind Jake and a group of little girls walked by and said "did you see him that was Jake" It was soo cute. Bella was a lady bug. Jake and Anthony were army men. Tyler brought his Indiana Jones costume from his house. Justin was a skater. Alyssa was a punk girl. Alexa was Snow White. Bobby and I went as a married couple! HAHA

Also I got to spend time with my best friend Dana. She came in town for the weekend. I miss her bunches abd it was great to hang out again. We always have so much fun!!

Love to all,
Cara Cares

6 month check up

As most of you know this month was my 6 month mark. I have my 6 month check up tomorrow. I am ready to hear that I have a 6 month clearance. I will let you all know as soon as I get the good news. All that I have been through has had its up and downs. I have made it through and God has given me an inner strength I did not know I had. As my husband wrote he knew I was strong but had no idea well neither did I. I made it through this and at times things may seem stressful until I reflect on what I have just gone through. I have all I need right in front of me. I will blog to you all tomorrow with wonderful news!!

Love to all,
Cara Cares

Looking forward to tomorrow.

I am so excited for tomorrow. I have a massage scheduled. A friend who works at the Komen foundation let me know about a service for cancer survivors. They are asking for volunteers for an hour massage. I was for sure I would not get in but I did. Free 1 hour massage I am there.
With all my body has been through this is so nice to have right before my surgery. I am so thankful that this sweet person thought of me. This is wonderful!!

Love to all,
Cara Cares

pictures from the party

Here are a few of the pictures from the party last night.  Alexa was funny, she wanted a picture of EVERY piece of clothing she got!!  She's such a priss!!  Poor Jacob...he just picked on the wrong people last night!!!  I lost count of the wedgies he got from Lauren!!  Anthony had too much fun with Uncle Mike....he took him outside and they broke sticks!

Toodles,

Aunt Chelley

Birthday parties

Hello,

Last night we had Jake and Alexa's family b-day parties. It was great! My whole family was here and we had a great time. Chelley brought the best cake ever. Butter cream frosting yummy! I am sure she will post pictures to my blog later. Alexa and Jake got clothes for fall and winter. I am soo thankful. I was just looking at their closet wondering how we were going to get clothes. The kids really appreciate their birthday gifts! It is really hard to explain to your children why one of their parents did not even send a card for their birthday. They are such precious children and they are always grateful. They had a great birthday filled with love! I love my babies can not believe they are 10 and 6. Yikes! Thank you to my family for coming last night. Also thank you to Nona, Uncle Ryan, Nana, Uncle Josh and Aunt Amber for the kids birthday gifts!

Love to all,
Cara Cares

To my honey

Honey,

First how wonderful to see what you posted on my blog. You always know what to say and at the right time. Give yourself the credit you deserve. I am in awe of you. You have stood by my side through the toughest time in my life. I could of never dreamed of someone as wonderful as you. Just like our song we waited "All my Life" for each other. As we sat on that boulder at the lake as the sunset on our first date we knew we loved each other then. It was an instant feeling and connection that people around us truly understand now. You still take my breath away. You always just know with out me saying anything. No matter what life throws our way no one can ever take away the way we feel about each other. You are my first and only love forever and always. I know we are doing a great job showing our children what real love is when our 2 year old runs around calling everyone "honey". I look forward to the rest of our lives loving each other the way we both deserve. I love you honey!!

Love to you,
Cara Cares

Message from Cara's honey

To My Baby,

I had posted a comment a few months ago, but I wanted to follow up with it. This has been a long hard journey for you. There have been many things that you have had to deal with during this very challenging time in your life. Despite many obstacles in your way you have made it. You are truly an inspiration to us all. I have prayed daily to God for your health and well being. God has answered me by keeping the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life at my side. My life had never been whole until you came into it.

The journey that this year has given us will never be forgotten. But it is something that has truly brought us closer together. The storm that raged around us was a tough one but our faith in God and our love and commitment to each other and God has gotten us to this point. I was so proud of you when you finished your chemo and radiation treatments. What you have been through was truly a test. You passed it with flying colors. I am truly in awe. I knew from the day that I met you that you had an inner strength about you. I had always thought that you were heaven sent and that we were meant to be together. I consider myself the luckiest man in the world to have such a wonderful woman in my life now and forever. I can honestly state that I had never felt for anyone before the love I feel for my wife.

After this year, I have realized how precious life truly is. It is times like this when we are faced with such challenges that we realize what is really important and how valuable and temporary our lives on this planet truly are. I prize every minute with you, my wife, and with our children. Yes there are times that our patience is tested, but the happenings of this year have also taught me how precious our lives are.

Baby, my love for you has no bounds and knows no ends. I may not act or say the exact right thing at the exact right time, but, as I have always done, I will never leave your side nor will my love for you ever falter. I look forward to the day that we grow old together and look back with fondness upon our grandchildren and the wonderful times that we spent together and the wonderful time that we will spend together in the future. I could never imagine anyone else in my life by my side. I love you.

Your loving honey.

Beautiful Weather and reflection

I have to say I love this weather. It is so beautiful. Kids love playing outside kicking the soccer ball around with daddy. I can not wait till this weekend. My family is coming over to spend time with us. I know as annoying as we all can be at times I still miss them. It will be good to see everyone. On a good not also I have lost 15lbs. I am not trying but coming off chemo and steroids the weight is starting to come off. Bobby loves me no matter what. He prefers a little curve so he is fine as long as I do not loose anymore. We shall see!! It is cheaper to get back in my old clothes. It is nice to be loved no matter what. I hated myself for so many years because I was always judged and compared to others. I was told bigger here and less there. You need this color lipstick and this color hair. It is a wonderful feeling to be comfortable in my own skin. Who knew I would ever have a husband that only had eyes for me. It is a nice feeling! I NO longer watch lifetime or the bachelor wishing I could be loved that way. This is the good life! I watch the shows now and think they do not have anything on my honey. One lady told me she admired that I could walk around with just a head wrap on. I told her years ago I would not of but now I can walk outside shaved head and all. I am beautiful.... I know everyone is probably tired of me going on about Bobby but I have to just pinch myself sometimes. He is so thoughtful in every way. A little long winded but thoughtful! Love you honey!! I know when my big sisters read this they will have to vomit afterwards. Kiss Kiss

Love to all,
Cara Cares

Let me catch you up

Well Friday I finished my radiation. 6 1/2 weeks of 5 days a week will make you very tired. I am proud that I kept going and I got through it. The radiation team said that I am the most put together patient and I have the best behaved kids. The kids really helped bring smiles to many peoples faces. I think my experience let them know not everyone dies from cancer. They are not afraid of that word anymore. Bobby and I tried to just act as normal as possible. We did not make a big deal about treatments or test days. Well next I have surgery. I need all of your prayers and phone calls. This month is my 6 month point and I have my test at the end of the month. I am ready to get the clearance for the next 6 months. My doctor said that with time this will get easier. Please continue to pray protection over my family. I do not understand the full reason I am having to go through things but I know that if I am faithful God will take care of us. God give me the strength, courage and wisdom I need. Help me be a living testimony.

Love to all,
Cara Cares

Jake's hits double digits today.

Well Jake is in good spirits. He is enjoying his b-day!. He is a sweet loving boy and soo smart.
He has an army cake that we made for him. I love my sweet boy!!!
Happy b-day Love you bunches Jakey!!

Love to all,
Cara Cares aka Mommy

TGIF

I am so thankful today is Friday. I am soooooo tired. I told the radiation person yesterday that she kick me in the rear the day before. She said "Well yes the treatments are concentrated now and your on treatment 29!" It was good to now that Robin Roberts from GMA had a hard time with radiation too. Somehow God gives you enough strength to get up everyday. By this time next week I will be done. I will be recovering and gaining my strength to have my surgery.
I need you guys!!! I am very lucky to have friends. If you think you are bothering me you are not. Give me a call or come by. You guys lift my spirits!! We are almost done and ready to start our next journey in life.

Countdown and emotional day

I am on the countdown I have 6 treatments left. The last 7 are very intense and concentrated on the area that had the cancer. I was so worn out after yesterday's treatment.
It was probably the emotional day too. Alyssa's friend lost her father Friday night. He was 35 years old. Her friend sang Celine Dion's "Because you loved me". I do not think there was a dry eye in the room. It was heartbreaking. I think her father would have been very proud of her.
I am very proud of Alyssa for wanting to be there to support her friend. I have raised a very caring and kind young lady.

Love to all,
Cara Cares

shameless sisters and genetic test results

Well I see that my older sister has once again hacked my blog and put a not so flattering picture of me in. Do you have no shame?? I emailed her about it and she played dumb through my countless emails. Ha ha soo funny!!

I also got back my genetic test results yesterday. All was negative no mutation was detected. This is all good news for the females in my family. It means that my children will not have to be tested at 18. I am so glad!

Well radiation is almost done and I am pushing myself to work. I am really worn out but kids have to eat. I know that God is the one giving me strength.

Love to all,
Cara Cares

Eye brows and lashes!

Well I made it through chemo without loosing my eyelashes and eyebrows. Well until now. Last night my eyebrows and eyelashes started coming out. I looked it up it may be my thyroid acting up. I was suppose to get that bloodwork done last week but I did not go. I guess I will do that first thing Monday morning. Good thing my daughter is an artist and can draw my eyebrows on for me. My husband of course is so supportive. He told me he has always like the egyptian look.
He is so sweet. I feel really bad for him we have only been married 2 1/2 years. We have been through so much and he still loves me so much. If I had been with anyone else this journey would have been impossible. I thank God for him everyday. Alyssa just walked up and is laughing at my blog. She is crazy! She agrees but says it is called weirdly unique! Kids got to love them....By the way Alexa had a great birthday. She enjoyed taking pictures and eating birthday cake. Well I better get back to cleaning before the babies wake up.

Love to all,
Cara Cares

ALEXA"S BIRTHDAY!!

Well at this time 10-3-2002 Alexa was about to be born by c-section. I remember how precious she looked. She was a good baby. As she got older she developed more rolls on her little legs then I had ever seen. I would put this top knot of hair up on her head and put beautiful bows in it. She is such a mommy's girl! Well all times when she is not on the soccer field. We are going to have lunch with her today for her birthday. We will have birthday cake and dinner tonight. We usually do family birthday dinners with her and Jake since their b-days are close. I love my little Alexa Jade!!

Love to all,
Cara Cares