Weird experience but good outcome

As you all know I posted the petscan was clear other then the cancer in the left breast. I was so happy and celebrated. I was so worried that if it had spread what about my kids, husband and family. I am too young etc.. I do have to tell of my experience with the petscan. Being that I have never had cancer I did not realize that the petscan was for cancer screening. I assumed that I was just going to some imaging center which handled a variety of scans. Well I walk in this room with elderly patients mind you I am 33 years old. On every wall, magazine, new article and handout was about cancer. Not only that but the music was the kind of music I had experienced at every funeral I had ever been to. Bobby had insisted the night before he was going with me but being the independemt person I am told him there was no need. I am a big girl and this is a simple scan. Everyone that knows Bobby understands he is by my side for everything. When Anthony and Bella where in the hospital. When I was hospitalized. Just always and amazing support to me. So needless to say he was less then thrilled I was doing this alone. I just thought well I will have so much to go thru he can not take that much time off. There are other things he can be there for. I swallowed my pride and called him from the waiting room to tell him of my first impressions of this adventure. I got a bold I told you so!
It gets better. I get taken back to this room that was freezing that I have to drink this milky barium junk and then get injected with the glucose substance and my veins are not being kind to the nurse so it takes to of them to get it injected with the needle wiggling in my vein. I get wrapped up in 5 warm blankets a tv turned on for me and just the sweetest people there to help with my every need. I am sitting there thinking are they really this nice or is it that I have cancer that they are being nice to me? After a hour I get taken to the scan machine which I was told looked like a cat scan but was more like half of a MRI which by the way I am terrified of.
I sucked it up and said I can do this. I had to hold my arms over my head for 30 minutes which by the end I could not feel. Then I was given a goody bag with cancer information snack crackers, cheese its and juice. I am not telling all of you this to complain but just to say what an weird, surreal and awakening experience. Just know I have come to the point where I have accepted I have cancer and that I am going to make it thru this. I am over for today the devastation that I felt so overwhelmed by at first. You go thru so many emotions at first. Today is really my first okay day where I did not think about it 24/7. This is a good point to be at. I could not of done this with out the support of family and friends. The support and love I felt has been so amazing. I need each and everyone of you. I am so thankful that God has blessed me with so many precious people in my life. I am very lucky God has his purpose for everything that happens in life and God has a great purpose in my life.
Love to all!
Cara Cares