6 days and counting/ Happy B-day Bobby and Megan

I really am starting to get nervous about surgery but then I put my faith in God and know that all will be okay. I think I am more nervous about what is on the other side of surgery. Chemo, radiation or both.
This whole journey really teaches you a lesson in ego. Yes I may loose my hair and yes my skin may get discolored. I have always loved my hair. I guess the good thing is I will be able to be blond one day and brunette the next if I do loose my hair. Lets just pray that does not happen. I think I have handled all of this thus far but that might push me a little bit. I can tell you life is a lot different when you slow down in the rat race and smell the coffee, look at the trees, see the unconditional love from your spouse, the love from family, the love from friends and the look of your children's smiling faces when you walk thru the door. My oldest Alyssa ans my 5 year old Alexa have taken this the hardest. Alyssa has cried many times. Alexa cries now every time I go to work. She understands enough that she is glued to my side. Jake is more the introvert and holds it all in. Of course the youngest two are to little to understand. My other four kids I really do not like the word step have been very supportive. I am also thankful to my family and friends. My mother and my mother in law in Canada call almost daily to give their support. My oldest sister has also been a big help with the kids and some of you know hacking into my blog and posting shameless pictures. As I close out today I have to also say Happy b-day to my wonderful husband Bobby and my Hollywood niece Megan.
Love to all,
Cara Cares